Who am I?
Hi, I’m San, and this is my website. I’m a 41 year old transgender male living in Ontario, Canada. I’m a dice maker and avid knitter, as well as blogger. This is my personal page and personal project. This isn’t medical advice or written to be advice, this is just a reference of my journals for myself.
What is this?
This is my personal page, my blog project. I apparently have good insight, and have a lot of knowledge, so it’s here in one place. I might publish my journal pages, trackers, and journal stencils (for 3D printing) here as well. I’ll see as it goes.
What is my diagnosis?
My diagnosis has firmly been bipolar disorder type 1, since 2001. In 2006, I had a psychotic break during college, and was changed to “schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type” and that stuck since then. I alternate between bipolar 1 with psychosis and schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type, with generalized anxiety disorder (diagnosed in 2001 as well) and ADHD (diagnosed in 1994).
I’ve had ECT for serious depression twice, once in 2008, once in 2022. I’ll elaborate on that later. I was mainly treated with hardcore mood stabilizers and first generation antipsychotics until I was diagnosed with nephrogenic diabetes insipidus in 2012 and can no longer take any version of lithium due to renal disease. I was switched back and forth from first generation, second generation, and third generation antipsychotics, still kinda am, for years, but am currently on a long acting injection form of Abilify, and find that helpful.
I do work, seasonal full time, and I run my business around that as well. I work in customer service in tourism. I do weekly markets regularly with my small business but am holding back next Spring to only do a couple events a month rather than be tied to a weekly obligation.
I’ve been in the psychiatric system of my region in Ontario, Canada since 2001, and it’s been exhausting, but mostly good. I’ve had a fairly good experience with doctors, they’ve done the best they can at the time, and now things are a lot different in psychiatry, there’s more patient education and input, so that’s a bonus too. I always have to remind myself when I’m inpatient that we aren’t in the early-mid 2000’s anymore and things aren’t as brutal. There’s definitely been a positive shift over time.